I think the hard thing about people that are abusive is that they can hide it. Maybe they send out signals that something is off.
Don't feel that you have to be in a rush to get back out there. It has been a little over a year for me since the divorce. You have to get your confidence back, give it time.
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Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory