K4D Rising #4

[Startingover2]

Wow...I leave for a few hours and there is 4 or 5 pages to read!

Ok, here is my 2 cents for what it is worth. I see alot of me in you and how you respond to W. Tell me if I am way off base here. I get bashed on my thread (thank you by the way cuz it helps) for being too open with exh. He wants to still be my buddy when it suits him. He wants to be able to come and go here when he wants to see baby. He calls me for advice about his other daughters or just life. When he feels me straying away he gets the ILY's and I miss yous out so it reels me back in. Yet, HE STILL IS DOING THE SAME BEHAVIORS! Nothing has changed.

He (like your W) is a cake eater. He doesn't want me to go too far just in case Plan A doesn't work. He still wants to be my buddy as it relieves his guilt. If we are friends it doesn't make what he has done so bad right?

Why do I put up with it? Because deep down I still have a fantasy of our life working out together. That someday this total jerk will come to his senses and realize what he has. If I cut him off completely and enforce the boundaries he will get mad, he will turn to whatever woman he is with this week, he will think I am a bit** and never change his mind. Honestly, when I get the nice texts saying ILY I do take a few steps back and have that "What if" mindset.

This guy has done horrible things to me! He doesn't deserve a second chance. So what if he gets mad at me? You need to think the same way.