Hope is the thing with feathers....

[Bridgestone]

Well, another week and a half gone by.

Things are moving along, but slowly. financial pieces are to the respective lawyers & appointments with the mediator have been set up for next month.

Ideally (ha!)... the final agreement could be hammered out by xmas time. Our BAD, BAD, BAD communication habits keep biting us in the a$$... I'm learning to recognize that even though he wants to hear what I have to say.. he really can't handle it. I almost wish he'd come here & get advice from Coach.

I've been thinking about future relationships.. I keep reading about how women who have been in abusive relationships seek out men who treat them as before. I'd like to think I'm stronger, know more, can see it now..

but I know I my graduate advisor is verbally & emotionally abusive...they talk & act much like StBX can when he is wielding his "power". It just makes my skin crawl to deal with them.. sick to my stomach, I shut down.. which is not good for finishing in a timely manner. I avoid.

Maybe finally recognizing that 8 year old relationship is an abusive one, is indication I AM stronger, wiser, more aware. I have no idea what to do about that R & how it relates to finishing the degree but I'm sure at some point it will become clear.

Also, not sure how this new awareness, wisdom, strength.. will play out when it comes to diving back into the pond where there are plenty of fish I'm told... but I know I'm scared.

I wondering how much of a factor 'emotional trust' will play in future relationships. I suppose as much I as let it.

Well, that was a nice chat I had with myself!

Hope all is well with those who are reading along both publicly & privately.

Peace
Bridge