Can I save my marriage?

[Lll54]

You're right. When he gets upset/sad/frustrated he takes it out in anger towards me. I've always known that. The reason I felt like I had to apologize was because one of the things I've been working on myself is less drama. Less letting people running my life. Less caring what people think of me. Live my life for me. I have been doing so well. And I feel like I slipped up that night. And by writing that email I was not following through with one of the changes I want to make in myself. I shouldn't have cared what they thought about me crying. I know he was angry cause he saw some of what they wrote about him and took it out on me. I tried to explain to him that I can't control what they say or do, only what I say or do. And all I did was apologize. But it looks bad. I see his point of view too. He was starting to come around. Invited me to this banquet and has now been dealing with the repercussions since sat. All the guys at work are coming up to him.."so heard Britt was crying the other night..why?" And he doesn't want to deal with that, and neither do I. I messed up that night. But I don't know how to fix it.

I also know he should have not been going through my emails. But I didn't even have a chance to confront him with that cause it instantly got into the conversation about how upset he is with me and how he saw change and now doesn't anymore.

I feel like I have taken 6 steps forward since he left and went one back sat. night. But I'm still 5 steps ahead...