Your answer should be a spark to understand that your not where you need to be.

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Emotionally I would want to.


Then your not detached. Your co-dependant. Why would you want to put your emotions at risk for someone who doesn't want, nor respect you currently?

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For my kids benefit I would want to.


It would be BAD for your kids for you to do so currently. Do you see that? Doing things 'for' your kids like that is not good at this time. You should be a strong, whole, independent K4d and THAT will show your kids more than anything you can 'do' for them.

M: 41
STBXW: 41
D: 9
Bomb: 4/26/09

On board the D train now..

"Suffering is when we try to change what we cannot."