OK...OK...breathe in, breathe out... slowly... Sure it can be anything... which means that it doesn't have to have anything to do with her or any past actions. I'm proud of you for being able to keep quiet before letting something out :)
There are busy days at work. Today can really be one of them. And maybe last night at dinner he was tired or preocupied with all he had to do at work today. But do I understand what you mean when you think about how you enjoy the conversation at meal time!!!!!! OR at any other time... and yes R is also the "never talks much type" so I can feel it as you say it.
However, I think righ tnow is a time to concentrate on those positives... - I'm just the right person to say this huh? LOL - THings have improved quite a lot and that's where you can focus right now... Feeling anxious is not going to improve the situation in any way. If this is nothing, then you just got anxious for no reason, and if there's something then being anxious won't let you think with a clear head. It's easy to be here telling you this... more difficult for you to do it over there.. but just try to do something that will get your mind of this even for a bit. Read a book - not a relationship book.. try a mystery - start on a project that you were thinking about starting, go for a new haircut, whatever works.. and then you'll be calm and it will be easier to deal with any thing that comes your way. I'm at work and the bell just rung, so I'm outta here, be back later Big hug nightshade
"Each and every one of us is deserving of a kind word, a gentle thought and the gift of understanding. "
I am SO GLAD I shut up. I got to my D's school at 8 am and was parking to drop my 2 girls when my cell phone went off. It was H: he was going for breakfast, did I want to go with him? We had breatfast (pink lipstick on) and afterwards as I was leaving he said: I'll call you around 5 pm to tell you what time I am going to finish
I was so happy I snuck out of work and treated myself to 4 1/2 gallon double impatients in different shades of red! And added an autumn gardenia into the bargain!
Where on earth is the ASSumption-off switch?
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
Told you :):) Glad to hear that twin. Sometimes we really need to find that off switch and if we don't it helps to be able to count bacwards LOL Hugsies nightshade
"Each and every one of us is deserving of a kind word, a gentle thought and the gift of understanding. "
Just got the perfect excuse to go see H's CPA. He is withholding too little in taxes and we are getting clobbered at the end of the year. Just hung up with H about it.
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
Hi Opt, Just catching up with your thread - finally! Great to know that you didn't have reason for your anxiety attack, something for me to keep in mind when anxiety overwhelms, as it often does. You are doing good, girl!
Definitely, I had called him earlier to ask him the CPA's phone number and in the conversation I somehow mentioned I did not trust that CPA because he was a friend of OW (who had told him all her sitch of us being in process of D and them being engaged, etc). I think it was on my H's saying that he did not like our old CPA (the one I went to for my taxes when we separated on 3/19; for those outside the US: we pay taxes on 4/15 and I usually have all my stuff ready well before!). My H said 'that makes two of us' in a very bad, defensive way, and hung up on me. I paged him back and he called very sharply and told me he was busy. I kept my cool and said cheerfully OK.
A bit later he called again to explain that he had been very busy and he would arrange everything and finished with an ILY.
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
:)
I got to my D's school at 8 am and was parking to drop my 2 girls when my cell phone went off. It was H: he was going for breakfast, did I want to go with him? We had breatfast (pink lipstick on) and afterwards as I was leaving he said: I'll call you around 5 pm to tell you what time I am going to finish 
