Quick update. Coach, I really have thought about what you posted yesterday. And, I understand. I am at peace with this, much more than I thought I would be.
The strange thing is that the more at peace I become with my current paths, the nicer and more open my W seems to be. She is acting like the W I fell in love with. I am not letting my guard down, and I don't have any expectations.
I don't perceive I am acting any differently. Maybe I am more relaxed around her. Maybe she is more relaxed around me. Maybe she is acting this way b/c she thinks this is the way to get me to be peaceful and give her what she expects in the D. I don't know. And, I don't care, b/c it's not my focus. I know my plan, and I know what I will and won't do.
I have spoken with one of the MC's W recommended, and I should receive a list of potential MC's from my IC any day now. I will press ahead on this, but will temper my conduct by what Coach advised yesterday. I'm not going to chase my tail anymore.
Thanks for sticking with me guys. I would say you don't know what you mean to me, but I think we all know what we mean to each other.
