Hope and heartache

[mishka422]

Unfortunately, I'm not any different. I'm more centered, not riding emotional tidal waves any more. Now it's just the small swells. I'm not emotionally attached to my xh anymore. He still has the ability to drive me absolutely crazy but I chalk it up to the fact that he is a complete dumba$$ who threw his family away for a someone I could never admit I had a passing aquaintance with and then I feel better. (I used that long description instead of the short version I normally would because I'm to stop demonizing her).

I don't think I'm a very good yardstick to measure growth with since I carry a whole lot of extra hangers on behind me (read - baggage). If I had worked through these things and felt better about myself I'm sure I'd be much further along.

I really feel you are in a great position to come out of this very strong and intact and ready to move forward with your life regardless of the outcome of your M. You seem to be a very confident man and that will go a long with for you.