Got to work this morning and we have a MAJOR crisis: there is no coffee. How can they expect me to work with no fuel! That must be what the VIIIth Constitutional Amendment meant with 'cruel and unusual punishments'. I had wondered...
The day started with another of my mental messes: H gets a call at 6:30 and gets up, fixes breakfast for me (and he said for him too) and leaves early. I go into full 'inquisitorial' mood: where is he going, why did he not take a shower, why did he wish me a good day but not say ILY... I went to my usual carpool and then to work and ran into him talking to a client. He was nice and happy, so I asked him if he wanted to go to the movies tonight. He said yes, then 'no, I have a staff meeting until 8 pm', then 'but if you want we can go to the night session, come and pick me up at the meeting'.
You know, my H was right when he told me I make 'everything about me.' I had been thinking his sudden departure this morning and his not saying ILY, and his rushing where related to something I had said or done, or not said or done, but they can well have been he had to meet this person and had forgotten... I mean it is really not about me, is it?
Yesterday while I waited for him to come home (he did at around 8:30 pm) I kept repeating my mantra: 'you have no control over him'...
Anyway, it is the movies tonight
BTW, I had also been thinking maybe his poor mood earlier in the morning was because he did not read the court notice I showed him yesterday (very typical of him: he does not see what he does not want to see), so I had been planning to call him and ask him about it. I think I'll let it rest.
We still have not started to discuss the book, but I think we need a rest from R talks. There is such a thing as overkill...
FINALLY, SOMEONE BROUGHT COFFEE
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
