I apologize CC...

Your post was reminding me of when I first joined this forum and I offered to do things in order to keep my marriage intact that went against all of my beliefs...

I was willing to be a doormat, I tried to be the nice one, I tried to be the bitch, I offered an open marriage hell the last time mine went to visit the OW in another state, I packed snacks for him so he wouldn't have to stop on his travel. crazy

I am not proud of any of this...I gave up my self-respect and I am just now taking it back...

I can see your self-respect flying out the window in your last post.

You love your wife and would basically do anything to keep her, I understand that however I don't want you to lose yourself like I did in the process.

Being her doormat isn't going to make her want to stay with you, having no self-respect isn't going to make her want to stay with you.

Be the man who can look in the mirror each day and be proud of the choices you make...

Not for her - For you.


May All Who Seek To Take My Life
Be Put To Shame And Confusion;
May All Who Desire My Ruin
Be Turned Back In Disgrace.
~Psalm 40:14~