I'm at the point where I know I've lived with honor and will continue to do so.
And....in doing so, you will teach your sons. You will raise them well. Be proud.
Needless to say, you will certainly be in my prayers tomorrow. Remember that the Bible says that "If God be for us....who can be against us?" So, you definetly have the stronger power in your corner. You respected your M and you tried to keep it together....and when things got too bad to bear, you tried for just for the sake of your children. I believe that b/c you are striving to live with honor, it will not go unnoticed. Hope you can turn it all over to God to take care of the decisions tomorrow, and you rest in your faith in Him.
Get a good night's sleep. You have many here you can claim as friends. (And one of them even lets you call her mom. )
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!