H took me out for a nice dinner tonight, our fav restaurant, fabulous food but oh do I feel fat!
Tried to keep the mood upbeat, but the Xmas dinner menu which was on the table brought up some interesting conversation, me trying to behave "as if" mostly me saying that I was going to organise something rather than find myself waiting for what I wanted and find myself doing nothing!
H seemed to be perturbed that I wasnt planning Xmas with him, yet wouldnt ask me to commit to anything! On our way home I said something which I can remember exactly what, but his reply was "well Im still here" I am concerned he might be sneaking back into our relationship without making a new commitment either way Im not sure what he is going! So we are still on wait and see!
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
