We do have a parenting plan already set up. I really caved in quite a bit just to try and make things less volatile between us. Sometimes I think I gave up too much. I did not elect to hire an L at that time and as long as she held up to her word that she would let me see her anytime I wanted, I would have been good with it (for the most part).
My plan basically allows for visitation the second, forth and fifth (if there is one) weekends. There is also time for summer and holidays.
X has been extremely bitter, argumentative and hateful up until I starting detaching. I think that has helped a bunch. I know we still have a ways to go and I need to be patient, but like I said in the previous post… As we move closer I expect too much, I start to think we are connecting and feeling like there is hope and a chance for our R to get better.
It is almost like setting myself up for heartache. The reason I think it would be with OM is bc previously she was kind of telling me when she was doing something with one of her friends. Of course, she could have been making all that up too. Who knows. I def don’t want to assume, but that is where my gut instincts lead me.
When we were together, I can say that I did not know how to nurture a R. There were so many things I should have done that I did not do. As well as things I did I should not have. I think most of us have been there. I really try to be the best I can and want to be that way too.
I get a little upset too if she is going out of town w OM (maybe), bc I basically work on one weekend and the others I am spending with my D. I have one weekend to myself and that is basically absorbed by things I end up needing to do around the house / home.
I feel like not too many women out there really want a guy that is so absorbed with taking care of his children. Almost to a point where it runs them off. I guess bc I had hardly anytime for them after all the other aspects in my life. I am starting to want a significant other in my world. Wish and hope X and I can make it. (crossing fingers and knocking on wood).
We have been apart for over two years now and I guess I have been attempting DB (writing posts) for about a few months. We have made progress, but not sure to what exactly it is attributable to. I hope it is the DB and I will continue attempts to incorporate in my actions / attitudes.
Awest, you sound like you are an awesome young lady and I hope your H realizes it soon. If my X will grant the ability or the chance to win her back I am all in…
