It's easy to feel like a failure especially when your husband keeps battering you with that. We ALL had that happen to us. The key is to stop thinking of him as your H. Imagine him as a child throwing a temper tantrum, a loon from the insane asylum, whatever. When you interact with him, you have to be able to step back and see and listen to what he says without taking it personally.
YOU DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG. You're just human like the rest of us. We all make mistakes. Your H is doing his fair share right now.
Build your self-esteem up. Concentrate on your kids. Don't think about "strategy" or a plan. Your first priority is to get yourself rooted first.
You're like a leaf in a riverbed getting swept up in the current. You feel that you have no control over what's going on around you and are being pushed and pulled every which way. You need to see yourself as the rock in the river. Let the current wash over you while you stay grounded in one place and STRONG!
You can do it. You just have to believe in yourself.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
