Move over... I 'm moving back......

[sandycay]

I have appointment with lawyer on Monday. H has agreed to not purchase anything till I talk to her about the ramifications. His reasoning for doing this is it's cheaper.... he wont' have to buy furniture and such... but I told him he won't have a home for the kids.... he says there will be enough room to sleep for all of them.

I told him that they would wan tthe kids in seperate rooms based on their ages... and he said that was BS.... but what do I know I told him i am only sharing the facts that lawyer told me about last time. Of course, they are facts and that makes himn nadder because that's real world stuff.

I keep pulling him back to the real world when I discuss bills, housing, and such.... shame on me but I guess I am not gonna stick my head in the sand and HOPE it works out for the best. I am gonna work it out for the best for all 4 of us.

But talks like these remind me of where I need to be and what I need to be doing. He wanted me get a job and contribute which I have no problem with except he forgets the fact that I have stayed home for 15 years while we have fostered his career and he makes well into the 3 figures. So, I will have to go back to school to make that happen. It will take 3-4 years and he didn't like that either. But I think even the judge will make him pay for me getting educated since we have been all about his career becuase we moved so much for it... it wasn't feasible for me to have one and I didn't need one.

Shed a few tears today, but that's to be expected... I have told a few people (friendsz)... kids still dont' want contact and tonight is my D's soccer parent vs. kids game.... so sad she doens't want him there because it will be weird and awkward. I told her I would not go if she rather her daddy and she said no I am really mad at him and I don't when I wont' be..... I know it will pass and I pray that he will step up to the plate to be a nice dad but I have my doubts.