X and I previously agreed to defer a week of visitation till a later time so we could split up the Visitation time with D and so I might be able to take that week off from work and really be able spend with D vs. working and seeing her only at night.

I asked if I could get her some during the holidays and X previously told me she did not really want to do that. I get an email from X today asking if I want to schedule my V week after the Tgiving Holiday. I called her see if she was trying to plan something around that time. If so, I could make greater attempts to see if I can make it work with my work schedule. Have to request time off and what nots.

I called and she did say she was planning a trip out of town during that time. She did not mention with who or where. I told her I would check and let her know.

I also asked if I could see her any this week. X said I could pick her up early after work on Friday. I work that day and already pick her up at 6. The earliest I could get her would be 5ish. She said she wanted to spend time with her during the week and that I had just seen her last weekend. I worked last weekend. I did see her the weekend before and definitely miss her.

I told X I did not really want to pull her away from D. and asked if she would be up for meeting me out. X says probably not as she does not like to get out from the house after work. Sounds like an excuse to not go. So I mentioned I assumed she did not want me to come to her house. She was like “not tonight”. So did that mean other nights? No conclusion.

We were both at work, so we could not continue conversation on the phone. I called Monday to check on D and X did not return my phone call.

Her planning to go out of town on Tgiving and providing me with the week she wants made me think she is planning the week with OM. She recently told me she did not have a BF. Does she? She makes no effort to get closer. It is all breaking my heart. How does one do this? We recently were together over the Halloween holiday. The closer I get the more it hurts, bc she does pull away again. As soon as I think we are going in a specific direction. She is going in the opposite direction. It is all so sad.. What are people thinking to be like this? How do we pull out of it? My heart is aching..


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