It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

I'm going through a no contact period right now. I still think about her way too much. I dream about her almost every day and wake up to realize she's not there.

I need detachment in a bad way. The hurt isn't as crushing but only due to getting used to it. I'm reading a book called Getting Back Together which is helping w/ the detachment.

Also, talking to her feeds into her defenses. They go up immediately and I need to let her relax and recognize that I'm not her enemy and that I'm evolving.

I would rate the possibility of reconciliation at less than 10%. I need to be comfortable with this. Some days I am and some I miss her. Hell I miss her every day.