Update

[sdharrell74]

I am coming ever so close to asking my husband to leave. I can not go on being lied to everyday. When he works his 24 hour shift, I have so much more peace. I feel a little less lonely. When he is home, I so crave the touch and emotion that I am not getting. He is right there in front of me but I can't reach out to him. I am hoping that we actually do go on this trip so that I can see how I really feel. It will do one of two things. Bring us together or make me see that he needs to leave. At this point, I dont even want his there for my sons surgery. All he will be doing is talking to the OW and updating her on our sons status. I did find someone that will show me where OW lives when I am ready to tell her husband. I am inching closer to that point. I feel like he already has some idea. He kept looking over at me at the party like he wanted to talk to me. Or maybe he was hot for me cuz I looked so good that night.