It is so hard. It makes even harder with my kids running around here as constant little reminders of the family we used to be.
I wrote earlier about having to put on a play. That play will have to extend to when I am in front of my daughter too. She tells her Daddy "Mommy was crying again today" and "Mommy says her prayer to Jesus that you will come home to us." She is a little spy in his life. haha!
I have never prayed as often or as hard as I have these last 2 1/2 weeks. When things get hard and all I want to do is curl in a ball and sob, I hit my knees and pray. I am full to the brim of guilt over the whole thing. YES, he should have communicated better with me. But, I could have taken it upon myself to become a better person while we were still 'us'.
Me: 33 / H: 36 M: 10y / T: 14y 3 kids BD: 2/22/14 Live in separation 3/8/14 H consult lawyer, says filing asap 4/24/14 H moved out 4/25/14 2nd time around. 1st separation 4y ago lasted a month
