Now that I have become aware that at this point my WAW has not ruled out future reconciliation, I am not as excited as I thought I would be. The last couple of days, I don't even like seeing her. Now I am almost looking forward to her being out. Am I going crazy, or is this "normal"?
Have others gone through this - one day feeling like you could be patient and do whatever it takes for however long it takes - and then a few days later, just want it over? Is it because, deep down I know that after a year of living single, it's not realistic that she will want to come back?
I am doing a better job of living day by day, and caring for me, and trying not to live with one outcome in mind. But....for a planner like me, that is just plain weird. I don't want to change the basics of who I am - especially aspects that I am fine with.
I hope my question is clear - because it's unclear in my own mind today.
