In shock...

[praying_in_GA]

It just kills me to consider saying that when I am not ready to let him go. I mean, I will do what you and the book tell me to do because...well, what else could I do? Nothing else has worked. I am just so scared of his reaction to me 'moving on' and 'letting him go'. That is what he wants (or says he wants). What if he is relieved I am letting him go find is 'love' somewhere else?

He says he is ready to file the papers but is waiting so he can be 100% sure but then he says he is pretty sure we are done along with the good ole 'we both know where this is going'. Talk about making my head spin. I don't know what he wants!!

I wish I could scrape the $$$ together for a phone coach. I don't even have money for Christmas right now though.