In shock...

[praying_in_GA]

I think she is trying to get me to the point of accepting that it is over. She has always been a single mother and there has always been some jealousy between us. I have always been jealous of her independent nature and she of my married life. I think she sees a divorce as a way to even the field for us almost. She had her kids in her teenage years while I waited to get married.

I think I will steal some of your words...thanks.

I already told her that if she is going to go back to H with what I say and feel then I can't talk to her anymore. She said she is sorry I feel that way, but she maintains she is not being a 'snitch' (for lack of a better word).

From here on out I am sticking to my new internet support system, my counselor at the church, and the few people in my life that are continuing to pray intensely for my R. I need that extra bump with God. I will not go in-depth with anyone but you all and the counselor.

I am going to finish DR tonight and I am thinking of ways to gather the money for a phone session or three. I think it would help me focus my thoughts and set my plan.