Britt, I'm not as experienced as Trent, but IMO, it seems like you aren't as committed as you should be because you are still obsessed with him. You have no way of knowing what is going on in his head, so stop trying to figure him out.
Why are you crying? Pick yourself up and focus on you. You won't be successful if you don't detach, Britt. We want you to succeed. Have you ever heard the phrase no man is worth your tears, and the one who is won't make you cry? Stop it, now.