There is no other way. There is no one in my life I can trust right now.
So you need to find someone like a counselor or a pastor.
You can trust us.
Praying, the purpose of finding out isn't to devastate you. It's to help you understand what's going on, so that you don't do anything that would further sabotage your efforts. YES, IT'S VERY PAINFUL. But at least you know, and you can deal with it accordingly.
