You know, it is really strange because for a long time he really wasn't on my mind. But for the past couple of weeks, I have been thinking about him a lot. I suspect I am finally coming to terms with all of this, and reaching the point when I am really healed.

I guess part of me will always love him. And in some small way, part of me wishes he would return to the way he was, and we could work through this.

But at the same time, I am also ready to move on. He has made it very obvious to me that he does not love me, and I have accepted that. I am not sure stbx is capable of loving anyone, least of all himself. He has made a complete mess of his life, and after all the work I have done to pick up the pieces of my own, I just don't know that I have the strength to worry about it anymore, if that were even an option.

I did get some good news yesterday...I have been working a temp job since August, but interviewing for a permanent position. Well, yesterday I received an excellent offer from a great law firm in Rochester, and I accepted. So as of Monday, I will leave this job, which I do love, but no benefits and the pay sucks, to take on a great job that offers 10 grand more a year in salary and full benefits.

Full circle. I think my life is coming full circle.

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..