Thanks for the support. The numbness from last night has worn off. Even with sleep medication only slept two hours. H apparently met with pastor after I confronted him and came home after that to tell me I did not desrve any of this, I did not fail in any way, this is not about me and that he is terribly sorry. I listened, told him I hear him but there is no forgiveness yet... not for a long time. H seemed quite confused and torn last night... wanted to tell me all of OW's faults because H stated he actually really isn't sure... blah, blah, blah. I told him I can't listen to anything about her right now. Basically just trying to give H the message that I am not going to meeting his EN's to relieve his conscience or helping him figure out what to do about her right now. H did seem genuinely worried about me, checking on me, apologizing over and over etc. Whatever, I told him it's pretty hollow right now. I go see my Dr. this a.m. to get a leave from work then the IC later in the day. Nell, I read your thread about what your C said. Very interesting, I am just not in a state of mind to process anything like that right now. Puppy, MC is covered by insurance. That may be a good approach. I don't know if H would even go at this point.
