Went to divorce support group for the second time last night. It calms me and even this morning I feel better.
Every day I get a little closer to accepting the separation and even understanding that it is the only option right now, considering how my WAW feels. I am also trying to see the separation as what it most likely is - a prelude to divorce. WAW continues to show hints that there is hope for reconciliation, but I am no longer clinging to that hope as much as before. Am I finallly starting to detach?
I have reclaimed an appetite of some kind and my calm moments are lasting longer. I am still working out with S16, dressing up more often, and making an effort to GAL. It's tough with money being tighter, but I am getting there.
I know it will be another phase after WAW "slowly moves out" December 1 and then yet another January after the family vacation and starting a new year with her move out complete. Those who have read this thread know that WAW is planning on being around the house a fair amount after her move in order to see the kids. I am thinking I will go with the flow in December to ensure the vacation goes smoothly, and transition is easier on kids, but in January tell WAW I want real separation. She can still see kids, but I don't want to see or talk to her for quite some time. This will allow me to truly move on and also let her see the reality of the situation. She will still be cake eating to some extent, but only in reference to the kids and I am ok with that for their sakes.
