Move over... I 'm moving back......

[sandycay]

Well according to him, I am confused because thats just sex. What to I want? Well, to be out of this hole I have been in for to long. For my children to not hurt. For their father to stop his verbal spew on them.... they are the focus, not me like most WAS...... he spews on them.

Maybe he will be happier, therefore a better father.... that said... they want nothing to do with him at the present time.

S said he feels like a weights been lifted of his shoulders. He doesn't have to walk on egg shells.

D said well atleast it will be calme here like last week (H was out of town)...

H brought his own unhappiness into a house thats happy and blames us for making him unhappy... hell even the kids figured out that's a load of crap.

They were saying Mom your awesome... he is the one that's unhappy not us... so much wisdom they have.

We have agreed that we (us 3) are the deal... and we are happy so we will continue to be that way.... we agree that it is sad that we won't be a traditional family... but we (3) are a family and we will be happy and we will survive.

They fear he will never be happy. That makes all 3 of us sad for him. We have loved him so much thru this, sacrificing ourselves to do it.

We won't do it anymore. It's time to move forward and start our lives... lives that matter to each other, love each other, and filled with love.

I love my kids and they love me, this will keep me content for the rest of my days. I am not sad that I tried again because I would have always wondered. Now, I don't have to wonder anymore.

Now, I wish I could sleep... long nights suck as well as the not eating. I will do better with the eating thing this time around but the lack of sleep is terrible. I got about 2 hours last night but once I wake up I am done.

Thanks to all who have replied... I need to hear them... I will reply on your threads soon but right now I can't think of anything to say.

Thanks for being here friends.