my W doesn't regret her affair

[bluerain]

I realized after all of my own personal growth that once I saw my H, and realized that he was still the exact same person that he was when he left that thats not what I wanted anymore. I want to be the center of someones attention, not second to a career, or their freinds and he couldnt do that for me anymore.

I hope that you are feeling better. I agree with antlers, if you want to keep going, then keep going, but you have given this an amazing effort, and at some point You have to decide when you are done. Either way, we are here for you.