Anyone following my sitch might remember that our pastor had called expressing concern about us a few weeks ago. I decided not to tell him what was going on yet. But, he called again and left a message that he would really like us to call.
I called him back today and he dropped everything to meet with me. It turns out OW confessed everything to him and there has indeed been a full PA for some time now.
Which my gut knew.
But, my head and heart were still struggling to accept.
So, here I am.
I confronted H... very calmly.... you would have been proud of me.
He admitted it all.
I told him I still love him and would be willing to work through a healing/restoration process.... BUT.... that is only if he chooses to cut off all contact and we have FULL transparency and disclosure.
H is stating he thinks he is in love with her and that they are God's will for each other. At this point, I think he is planning to leave me.
But, he is still afraid of losing his job, etc. etc.
I am now in the process of determining what to do about exposure. I know it is time for exposure. I am just determining who/when.
I am devestated, but also find the anxiety is finally somewhat relieved now that I actually know the truth.
I am also so sad. The man I knew before was such a good man.
