Is this the end of my marriage?

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Thanks Sandi2.

I agree I have been wishy washy. However I have waited for a few days before posting this to make sure I am determined to do it.

I am terrified to do it because I think it will be the last time I ever see my wife. However I know, deep down, that I must do this for me and my D. The positive aspect of all of this is that the 10 days or so I had no contact from W I actually really began to live again. I want that feeling back and while W is still in the picture I don't feel it. I don't blame her, I blame me for allowing her to make me feel this way.

Could I deny my D that much? Yes, I think I could as ultimately it is hurting her. The more distance she gets the more she will forget and move on.

My deadline for the speech is the end of the month. It's not tomorrow. I actually wanted to post this now so I got good feedback and was able to tweak it before that time.