Yikes! Need help, please.

[Super Girl]

Thanks! I actually feel good. I would like my H back, but I realize it's a want, not a need. I will be okay without him. I am okay without him.

You guys have really helped with my frame of mind. It's nice to have a place where people are going through their own personal hell, but still manage a kind word or a 2x4 when needed.

I'm just trying to take things minute by minute.

*Cue Doobie Brothers music for the old kids* lol

[Super Girl]

So what did you tell the people who called?

Nothing, I promised myself I wouldn't answer a phone until 8. I've been so weak, the least I can do is see this challenge through.

It takes a special kind of friend to see you through something like this. Plus, you don't have to worry about us holding it against your H if you reconcile...

Yeah, which is why I've only told 2 people. It kind of goes two ways...if we reconcile, I'm either wrong about him now, or the or wrong about him on the day we reconcile. Either way, the people who don't get it, or the PWDGIs, think I'm a whackadoo.

[Lll54]

That a mistake I've made. Everybody knows, if we ever do reconcile (knock on wood) then its gonna take alot on H's part to earn the respect of a lot of my friends.

[Virtually_Handsome]

As far as I know, no one (other than here) knows our story. I like it that way.

[Lll54]

You are lucky. I live in a small city...so there is no keeping secrets.

[Virtually_Handsome]

Of course part of keeping the "secret" is not telling anyone! I think she has told one of her friends some things, but I am pretty sure she hasn't told everything. Doesn't really matter. The other thing that made everything cleaner from that standpont is no OPs. So no rumors to control!

[Super Girl]

It's not really a secret, it's just not really anyone else's business. If I told people, I might have to untell them. I just didn't want to get into that until I had my own head on straight.

[Virtually_Handsome]

That's a better way to put it, SG. It just isn't their business. And in general, no matter how things turn out, it still isn't their business!

Close, trusted friends are one thing. Everyone else, not so much!

[Super Girl]

I did it! I kept the phone off for hours. It was pretty freeing, but it left too much time to think.

I'm going to see H tonight. I am going to do my best to stay focused. Wish me luck!

[TrentC]

I did it! I kept the phone off for hours. It was pretty freeing, but it left too much time to think.

Like I said; it's a new opportunity to find ways to fill that time.

Read a book. Take a class. Pick up a hobby.