I know now that it isn't necessary to place blame. That is rehashing the past. I can accept responsibility and attribute responsibility without having the play the blame game. It will be essential to moving forward with my boys without having bad feelings for their father.
Good for you, bim. Very healthy attitude/outlook. It will serve you well, I'm sure.
Originally Posted By: brownidmom
So, the last few days and the ones to come until I feel some kind of renewed energy, I am just going to get some rest, as much as I can get while still keeping up my responsibilities, and then work on filling my buckets so I can start to get back to myself, the me that I enjoy spending time with. And then start recognizing what I need daily instead of letting myself get to this place of mental and physical exhaustion. I don't like it and refuse to let it become part of any cycle in my life.
Just beware. That beast wants to recycle and come back. My challenge always seems to be finding it rearing its ugly head earlier and earlier so I can stop it before it gets goin' again (ain't doing such a good job of it myself, though lately!)
By the way. I hear "filling my buckets" often on this forum and I think I can figure out what it means. But I might as well ask and be sure. What does it mean? Keep going.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
