Thanks for being here. I was a wreck last night. Still am today as well. I do need to be ready to let it all go, and admit that my W, while not wanting to lose me, will not recommit to me and our M.
But... I also have to appreciate how far I've come. One of the rules of DBing is to carefully think out every move. As so many here have said over and over, she will not decide to come back to me until she feels my loss. I think I'm almost there. I have so little left inside me at this point. It's been over a year since the bomb. As she's getting closer to me, I'm going away more and more. I am exhausted by the game of it all. I want a real R where I get something back other than confusion and heartache. There are so many nice people out there.
I think I'm detaching more, and that's good. For me, detaching and throwing in the towel seem to tied together though. I've been in limbo for so long now, I don't want it any more. Life is too short.
