Well her too...but what I mean is I feel when I look back on MYSELF that things are different. I doesn't feel like I am looking at me but maybe a distorted version of me.

It feels like I was acting more intense and a little outside of myself. Like I wasn't behind the wheel all the time.

This is a bad way to describe it but it's a little like waking up after too many and asking, "Hmmm...did I really say that? I remember something with a lampshade...tell me that wasn't me." (I've had too many of those days hence I quit.)

I don't know what's wrong. I have few things I regret from that time and feel fine about my actions, however something seems unnatural.

Last edited by orangedog; 11/09/09 10:31 PM.
"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand." Thich Nhat Hanh