I pulled myself together, spend the evening playing in the garden with the toddlers laughing and relaxed, and H laid on me that its all over between us, formal sepration as of now. Where I live it is 12 months to no fault divorce, he wants to go there too.
Thanks so much for everyone one has supported me over the last few months. I will keep trying but as he has not really since the bomb I think thats pretty much it. I do have friends taking care of me in RL.
