Admittedly, I have not reviewed your entire sitch. But, you sound like you are in the same place I was a couple of weeks ago. You might want to take a look at my thread for the last 2-3 weeks to see if any of the advice I received (esp. from Coach) helps.
I was tired of limboland. I just could not wait around any longer. You have to be ready for the worst though, before pushing any at that point. While I do not feel any better about M working out than I did 3-4 weeks ago, I feel better about me and the fact I am leading us out of limboland. To where, who knows. But, I am doing something rather than waiting for something to be done to me.
