K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

Stuck,

If you noticed, I just changed my signature for page 92 on standing.

I am glad I posted here. I needed to get 2x4'd. But I am not sure that is exactly what I got. I am not going to go back out with her. I will cancel that. I think that everything everyone said was on target. I don't know why I posted it though. I think I was just feeling conflicted within myself and so I posted it.

So I made a mistake. A couple last night. I realize that. This is definitely a harsh site at times. I guess it is needed. And I am not looking for anyone to feel sorry for me. I can own up to what I did.

Kevin

[K4D]

So much for page 92 of your post.

Yes. So much for it I guess. I caved last night.

Kevin

[gucci loafer]

Kevin,

At some point you have to stop listening to the people on here and make your own decisions...


QUIT PUNISHING yourself. You are PUNISHING yourself..

Go out with this woman and have some fun. Quit punishing yourself. You are allowing others to help punish you on this site. Stop allowing them to punish you and stop punishing yourself...

Go for it... Allow happiness. Let happiness in. Stop trying to be with a woman who DOES NOT want you and go for a woman who DOES act like they want you and stop punishing yourself.

You are doing nothing but self punishment. Go for it.

Stop telling the people on here what you are up to and make your own decisions. MAKE YOUR OWN DECISIONS... and THEN..... LIVE WITH THEM... no need to get the permission of people on here. Make YOUR OWN DECISIONS... Stop the self inflicted punishment over every decision...


Good luck... GO FOR IT... Go for the HAPPINESS... Quit the self punishment of wating for your WAW. Stop doing this to yourself...

[MrBond]

GL,

It's not the going out and having a great time. Hey I'm all for that. It's the addiction of the alcohol with that. That's what everyone's up against. Can't be in AA then start drinking when a hot piece of @$$ comes along.

Get an addictive personality with something like that and you end up crashing and burning hard. It's the nature of alcoholism or any other addictive substance.

[K4D]

I am NOT addicted to alcohol. I had 2 shots last night. And I am NOT in denial of my past. I acknowledge what my past was. I simply had fun last night. Goodness gracious.

Kevin

[K4D]

25,

Do you have anything to add or has it all been said today?

Kevin

[MrBond]

It's not so much the addiction to alcohol it's the addictive nature in general. Geez Kev, take a look at what the others wrote to you about that.

But like I said, I'm all into having fun and a great time with a female.

[smith18]

This is from about a year ago...

I haven't drank in 3 months. The only reason I started back before was because she said it was ok to do it now and then and I did it more after that. This time I am done completely no matter what she says. I thought it was ok before.

[K4D]

Stuck,

I got weak and fell last night. I fell to easily. It happened. I should have been stronger. I have been and I just caved last night.

Yes, I read what everyone said. I realize I become easily influenced at times/addiction mentallity I guess.

It just seems like if I do anything, everyone says ADDICTION. I'm not quite sure how to get around that or get past that.

Kevin

[K4D]

KerryK,

I get it. I am not going to let this lead me back into drinking regulary again. Not that what I say means anything. But for my own self.

I do know that I can have a drink or 2 and walk away just fine and not crave it now. As FaithfulH can attest to, I had a margarita one night with him at a mexican restaurant and that was it. I was fine. I didn't want anymore. But it sure went great with the food.

But I guess there is no reason to tempt it to become more again.

Kevin