Can I save my marriage?

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Well just got back from MC. He definitely worked on "me" alot more today. I was a mess. Haven't been that way in weeks. MC really talked more about boundaries and making choices based on my healthy needs and wants. He said everything I am doing revolves around H and I am living in an unhealthy separation. I am showing signs of "insanity". I agreed. I told him its time to detach, and let go. I need to put my hope aside. My false hope has been guiding me this whole time and into the wrong place. He also wants me to be honest with myself and H. He stated that if there is ever a chance of "R" then honesty is key. No more saying things certain ways, and only saying certain things in fear of H's reactions. So my goal this week is to set boundaries, live for me this week accept my H is gone.

H had a meeting with MC last monday and I was hoping to get some kind of idea of what happened out of MC today, but he was pretty good at being confidential. The only thing he said was that I need to concentrate on me cause H just "isn't there yet". So I took that as his knowledge from the meeting he had with H.

As soon as I got home, H showed up to get the boys clothes for the week. As soon as he got there he asked me for the garage door opener. (I borrowed his on sat night). I don't understand why he needs the garage door opener? He doesn't live here! As we were packing the bags, he asked me for a hug cause I was acting weird. And then left.

Hot and cold, hot and cold, hot and cold