WAW has so much anger/hate, still love her

[brknheart]

tnks etrain. Yes, detaching is hard. Ive been doing good until this weekend. I know its a long process and roller coaster ride. People keep telling me that "you will be better off" or "she is doing you a favor" but its not easy to see that right now, if its true. Its hard not having someone for so long and then being so lonely. I try to do as much as I can get GAL and get my mind off things, but sometimes no matter what you do memories pop in your head. She has put me through hell, has no idea whats its like to be the one getting dumped. Despite this, I still hope she sees things arent hopeless by the time we sign the papers.