Can I save my marriage?

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I just read up on co-dependence. Yes, it is me in a nutshell. It is also my H. The whole reason he left was cause he was tired of trying to please me all the time. So we both fall under this category. How do we get out?

I'm trying not to mind read. It just hurts to hear things like that because he hasn't said anything like that in a long time. Things have been so good, so it just took me for a new ride.

I don't go to church. I was raised in church but since I went away to college and stuck here I never really got back into it. Of course I believe, but I'm not quite at the place where you are suggesting.

I think I'm going to take my DB book to counseling today. I am interested to hear what he has to say about it. I know no relationship talk. Believe me I wake up every morning with a pit in my stomach wanting to talk so bad but this is one thing I've been successful at. I have no brought "us" and "R" up since I've started DB'ing. So I pat myself on the back with that one. Even though I know in half an hour my MC is about to be really mad at me for not doing it and not giving in to my fears.

I will also bring up my anxiety problems with him today and see what he thinks.

Yes sadgirl, I always listen to Trent. Look where he is at today. Its wonderful. I only hope to be there one day. He is hitting his head against the wall everytime he reads my posts. Trent I know you are reading this, but I just want to say that as hard of a case as I am, and as many internal problems that I'm facing. You don't understand how much I appreciate you taking the time to help me. Many people would have given up on me by now. And you probably should too, but you are different. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.