wmp, very sry you find yourself here. You will find great support here. Take a deep breath. Stop chasing after her. Avoid R talks. When there is contact stay calm and upbeat. Keep it brief at first to help deter any R talks. Remember you can only control yourself, not her.
It was difficult to read thru ur posting. You said you had some DB coaching and read over DR?
Most importantly take care of your children and yourself! Its good you contacted an atty so yu are protected.