In shock...

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Sad to see you here, but welcome. I know this is painful as we all feel it. My wife had mentioned pawning her rings off yesterday, and it cut me to the bone. Everyone is right though about saying to focus on you. It's easier said than done, that's for sure. It's been a week since my wife dropped the bomb, and it has been a rough week. I have felt like giving up, but I know that I have to hold on to hope and stretch out my faith in the most difficult of situations. I started going back to church, and I am on the path of re-establishing my relationship with God. At first I was praying for a "quick fix" but realized this isn't the answer. I have decided to give my marriage and my wife to God, and that is hard. I pray to God for strength to truly do this. Yesterday in church, the pastor had said something that stuck in my mind - "Our future is better than our past...". Now I know that is God telling me something. I pray to God for wisdom, clarity, patience, and to teach me how to TRULY love as Jesus loved us. And I pray for strength and grace to change into a better person. Each day is a new day, as long as we are alive there is always hope. Yesterday in church, I was sitting in a pew, I had told no one of my situation and this was the first service I attended at this church, a lady sat beside me and told me "That God loves you, he knows that you feel so alone and hurt right now... But he wants you to know that he is here with you..." I just broke down to tears... Just know that even though this is painful, and no matter how alone you feel - you are not alone. God is there for you and we are all here for you. We all share your pain with you. In the bible it talks about the most powerful thing is love. Love endures all things, hopes all things (1 COR 13:7) - we can all take a lesson in that. A lot of times we take for granted the true meaning of love, I am guilty of that. I am asking God to teach me the true meaning of love... Hang in there!