NC with wife for one week

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Not much new to report. Saw W yesterday for the second time since she left in July. She stopped over at the house to get her snow tires for her car. I helped her load them and gave her her mail. She petted the dogs for a couple of minutes and then took off. No R or D talk. She said thanks and headed out the door.

She had been there two weeks ago and got some coats but did not pick up her tires at that time. I was out of town that week and she did not know that I was. Last night she mentioned that she needed a vacuum as she hasn't had one since she moved out. I said ok take the spare one it is in the basement. She hesitated and said she would just get it later.

She hasn't stopped by the house for 3 months and then stops by twice in two weeks and plans to stop back again sometime to get a vacuum. Whatever.

When she stopped by the house was spotless, I was dressed to head out on the town and did not mention anything but small talk. Friendly but nothing more.

On the D front. Her L seems to not know what he is doing. He is a criminal lawyer and not a Family L. He forgot to file the papers until after I sent my response in. When my L talked with him he did not know of any mediators and really didn't see it as an option. My L sent over a list of mediators last week. Still not sure when we can go to mediation or what will happen. I would rather not go to mediation since that would mean that I would have to sign off on the D. I truly don't believe in D and not sure if it is something that I can or will do. I accept the fact that my M is over and my W is not coming back but signing D papers to finalize is still something that I am not sure I can do. If we don't go to mediation court date will probably be in July or August of next year. One thing if I do wait until court I get to stay in the house for at least the next year with her paying half the mortgage. Her lawyer also mistakenly put in the papers that the house would not go on the market until one month after D is final. Since we can afford to have both places it really isn't a problem there.

As far as her beleiving that I am done with her and that wakes her up. I don't think that will ever happen. She knows of my religious stance on D and knows I won't change. I was wearing my wedding ring last night when she came. She may or may not have noticed doesn't really matter. She knows I am not for the D.