Just when I thought I could start trusting him with my heart again he stomps all over it. H has been more loving and caring and just seemed to be engaging more in the marriage. I thought it would be a good time to bring up putting on his ring...WOW..was I wrong. I have made HUGE improvements in our marriage..HUGE..he said it has been 10 years that you have been like this. 10 years..he will not let go of the past..I never cheated or left. I have supported him..here is what he tells me..I am never putting that ring back on again. You are not someone I will ever be able to talk to or trust..yet a few weeks ago I hear how I am the only person that understands him. I am tired of him hurting me..I handled it very well and went about my day..but he did make me cry..later he came in drunk and said you make me feel bad about myself..and I said the only person that can make you feel bad about yourself is yourself. He then said I am lonely..I said I am sorry you are lonely but I am here for you every single day..emotionally and physically. I am tired of being the one that has to be perfect..what about him?? It hurts me so badly..he said dont you think it hurts me to have to tell you I cannot talk to you or trust you..BS...total bs! I have NEVER given him a reason not to trust me..unless it comes to money and to be honest even with that I came to him on multiple occassions and asked for help! This is just bs that I am dealing with a BABY here! I feel like crap..Why the He** does he feel like he cannot talk to me..truth is..he cannot talk to ANYONE..THis is just BS! He will never forget the past. I have put up with SO much from him..Why should I be responsible for EVERYTHING!
