Trying to save my M. W not really trying though.

[etrain]

Journaling: Today begins week 2 of our S. Still lots to do around the house so that's keeping me occupied. The "visits" never materialized. I went over to W's place once to see my S. She never visited him on the days he was staying w/ me. So much for that.
I had a fun time w/ my friends on Saturday night. I'm really trying to make sure I have plans for EVERY Saturday night so I'm not sitting at home alone.

I'm a little down this morning. During the drive to work, this thought popped into my head....Being married to me was so bad that my W was willing to cash in 1/2 of her retirement, move into a small 2 bedroom apartment, & only see her son 1/2 the time...just so she could get out. Now that's bad.
I hate it when my mind wanders like that.
Blaming myself...BAD. Feeling sorry for myself...BAD.
Ugh.