I am so confused at the moment. How do I see things? I step back and see that H is on his journey, and I am on mine. I was doing really well but this latest round has pulled me back in again. H is back in the angry phase today(passive aggressive), and very very depressed as well. Hard to get hello out of him, and although I am trying to find my centre there are big hits rolling this week. It feels like we have jumped right back into hardcore replay, and I am afraid that that might be the case in which case we are more likely not to stay together.
I see a marriage that is retriveable and could be fantastic again, but someone hell bent on a road away from that, who is very very unhappy and blames me for everything wrong in his life, without understanding. It also feels like the longer this goes on, the less chance there is of resolving it.
H will bring this stuff up again, as he took emergency leave from work to come home and "sort it out". So if he stays in this anger zone, sorting it out will probably be him telling me hes out, a backed into the corner not careful choice.
