Well future, its nice to see you! maybe not like this, though... I guess that you are in a place to hear this again, antlers said it on here a few pages ago-
"there's a lot to be said for letting her know you respect yourself enough to let go of the people that don't value you."
I think that maybe you should read up on the LRT. Im sorry that things seem to have gotten a little tougher, but it will get better.
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...