It sounds like she is manic. I know bipolar is one of the illnesses that requires medication to keep under control. I don't know if your MC will discuss what your W told her, but I do think you should discuss this stuff with your MC; the drinking, the hiding of her drinking, the lack of taking bipolar meds, etc.
Alcoholism is a disease from what I understand, your blaming yourself or saying you feel neglectful is like someone blaming themselves for their W's physical illness. I think to a large extent, your W has to acknowledge and deal with her alcoholism; not much you can do to solve what is her problem. Detaching and focusing on yourself and your kids is something you can work on. Have you discussed this stuff with your MC and discussed any possible options or ways of dealing with this?
We did discuss it in detail last week. I was doing pretty well that particular day; really focused on GAL and trying to 180. MC studied with MWD, although W doesn't know about DB. In fact the next day W told me that I had shocked her with my behavior and she was just waiting for another few weeks to go by and me to revert to my old ways. She's managed to pull me into a few R talks, and I think I've been messing up.
She seems manic to me. but I'm worried that I'm clinging to that hope since it means she'll eventually come back down.
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