Thanks so much for the support! I have such issues with my kids that it just makes me so upset to have to do it alone.
I am just going to continue to give him his time and space, no matter what. I know he feels I am pressuring him, you are exactly right!! That is so true, cause no matter what I do he feels that way right now. He has so much to work through. I just get so overwhlemed thinking he doesn't know that no matter what I am here for him, that I want to tell him over and over. I know that is making it worse, so I bit my tounge. I try the kid thing, but I get so upset it turns into something else. I know he doesn't feel worthy of anything and I hate he feels this way. What is so hard is he does share things with me and we shared so much when he was up here and then...boom...he is right back to not sharing anything and doing all he can to push me away. He is just in and out of the tunnel, and I know that, but it is so hard to watch. Thanks again, I need to come here all the time so I can stay on track!
The thought of Christmas is just making me miserable!! We had such great Christmas traditions and XH has never missed waking up Christmas morning with our kids. The closer it gets the more emotional I get, it is soo hard to just ignore it when it is everywhere you turn.
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Me-40 XH-44 T-21 M-18 Div-19 mo. D-18,S-15,D-11 Bomb-7/07 EA,PA Mvd out-9/07-to give me space mvd back-12/07 mvd out-7/08 back with OW since 2/08 OW broke it off-1/10 in and out of tunnel and our life since!!
